AQUAINTANCES

Today I found out that a classmate, who I once hung out with, will be leaving our school after this phase to begin chemo treatment for cancer that has returned for a second time (that I know of). When I heard this news, I began to feel bad about myself. I always say I have a way of "ticking" people off. I do it with my parents, my children, my friends, and those I don't even know personally. I don't know if it's a knack or lack of self control. 

         Church Sign - Looking for self control, put God in control.

This person I am speaking about is not one of my closest friends, we were more like "acquaintences" as he would put it. For a few weeks we spent a lot of time together though. In that time we shared a lot about ourselves with one another. This person had told me (had told the class) that he was a cancer survivor. He had been in remission for 4 yrs (?) when he started coughing last phase. Everyone kept an eye out for him and asked if he was okay. He mentioned to me that doctors had told him the coughing fits he was having was residual from the chemo he had had. They told him it would eventually go away. Well it didn't go away, in fact the cough became worse. So my friend went and had it checked out. I don't know the details for we started drifting apart at that time. What I am aware of  is they wanted to put him in the hospital then, but he is stubborn, he has his life planned out with school being the #1 priority. No time for illness. Another week went by and he went back to be checked out and was admitted this time. Seems the cancer is back. 

Seems that part of medical work includes HIPPA which is more or less confidentiality when it comes to patient information. We at school have had it drilled into our heads how important HIPPA is and what can happen if it is breeched. We have been told that we are to act heads above everyone else. To act professional. Apparently teachers don't go by what they preach for how I first found out that this person was ill was through our lovely faculty

Do what I say - Not what I do

Needless to say, I was told today that this person will be leaving. I feel bad because I wasn't always nice to this person. To long of a story but there is always two side to a story. I'm just saying.....

I am not always so cold hearted and mean. I do have feelings. I am worried for this person. I don't know how bad this is. He's had surgery, and he will be taking chemo. He's a child of God, as we all are, so I know he will be in safe hands. The human side of me is still worried. It must be bad if he is packing up to be closer to family. It must be bad if he needs chemo. It must be bad if he is leaving something he is so passionate about due to his health. 

We no longer speak, so I have no idea what the prognosis is. All I know is he is leaving. Makes me wonder why some of the battles I choose seem so big at the time: Seem so small when something like this happens. I have a FB friend who posts what they are thankful for. I started doing the same. No matter the reason we no longer speak I will keep my friend in my thoughts and prayers.  People are put in our lives for a reason. 

 I am sad

but

I am thankful this person came into my life.